sunday afternewn

well i haven't wrote in here for a really long time, and i apologize. Im at my best friends right now and me and cory are waiting for her to get ready and then were gonna take cory to drop off applications eberywhere. today is Feb.28th and im really excited because tomorrow is march and i only have 3 more months left till i graduate. My brother Bryan,alexis, and i are all moving out hopefully sometime before August. Im really happy and excited because ive been waiting patiently since i was a little kid to move out and to follow my goals. i still plan to go to Pasadena City College and im way stoked for that tew. Alot has been new lately kinda. I met this reawwy sweet,cute, and awethome guy name Stephen. I know you don't need anyone to complete you, because you need to complete yourself, but i feel like hes my other half for some reason. He makes me really happy, and no matter whats going on with me or the craziness at home hes always there for me. Im still young and about to go off and do what i want with my life really soon. There will be alot of new people i will meet in my life, but for now im content with what i have. ill write in here later. tehe

last nite.today.tonight.

hmmm well last night my mom called me saying im gonna pick her up from the airport on Thanksgiving and i was really excited/nervous. alexis and i were waiting for shrinking heads to come on net geo that night too. emilio came over later and we went for smokes and talks outside. it was fweeezing! i wrapped my face in a scarf and my legs were bare so it was useless! i was really excited because her dad had really good chocolate in his cupbard and i stole a bar and hid it under the blankies and ate it. i ate it too fast so it hurt my tummy alot. i was really really happy and excited because i thought this thursday was thanksgiving and i thought i was gonna see my mom then till i realized it was next thursday it bummed me out alot but at least alexis texted me(who was sitting on the same couch as me next to mil) telling me funnies. the shrinking heads show pretty much ruled. i came home and started to do my laundry and clean my room until something suprising happened which made my heart drop. i just listened to my music closely and cleaned my room so i wouldnt think about it so much. i ended up watching no reservations and going for a smoke and finishing the movie. i planned on going to bed early that night so i can finally get good sleep and that i didnt start school till really late. that suprise that hapened earlier that night kept running through my mind through my memories. i stayed up going over those memories and thoughts as if it was a movie. it was really lame. i didnt sleep till 2 30 i woke up early too -_- well today was thuper awethome. school was good and alexis FINALLY got her license today and saw a man who looked like brandon boyd at the dmv...mmmm. i feel like these blogs dont make much sense but anyways they are for me.

p.s. i want to go to the mountains alweady!!! :[

I miss you.

i wish things weren't so messy in my head. maybe im not thinking clearly but im going with my advice from my loved ones and from myself. i know i need to let go and finally move on. i think i always love that one person though no matter what. a few years up the road i know i will still have that special place in my heart for that person. i hope he will understand....hmpf.

miss you,

you can't reach me because im so behind you today

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fotos from the weekend :]

i havent wrote in here in a while. well i definately needed this weekend and it was nice finally relaxing and just catching a bit of a break. friday alexis and i just went to hangout with our friends kenny and d lo we blazed a little and we left early and i had to drive home. for some reason i get really scared of driving even when im the slightest of faded. we went to starbucks and we got a lemon loaf and a drink and just chilled. we watched a movie and just relaxed the rest of the night. saturday josue came over to alexis's house really early. he had his wisdom teeth pulled and his cheecks lewked sew cute. he brought us pancakes which were awwmazing. later i wanted to drive to garden grove to eat at my favorite tofu house for korean food. we went to my old friend alex's kickback in orange county and had a few drinks and just met up with alot of my old friends from there. alexis had to drive back and we had an awthome jam sesh on the way back tew. sunday we went shopping for winter clothes and got a few stuff and i hate the mall. later i went to visit daniel that night and i watched the hangover for my first time and canoodled. . his mom was the best and really sweet. we went to get dinner later at fizzolis and it was sew good. ive been thinking about my plans for the apartment and who will be rooming with alexis skot and I we need one more person which might be my brother :] wee.

halloween

so i spent my halloween weekend at my bestfriend alexis's house. we didn't really have much in store for us except to just dress up and meet up with a few people. alexis's was alice in wonderland and it was really funny because people didnt know what she was dressed up as but its a pretty obvious costume it lewked cool on her definately. i was a bear for halloween but they only had puppy ears so i pinned them into bear ears so i kind of looked like a reindeer haha. friday night we went to meet up with our friends stephanie and john. we were on our way to our friends party in pomona we got there around 10 and we didnt even get into the house it got rolled up really fast. so we went to our friends house who was having a get together and since it wasnt a costume party we were the only ones dressed upbut its okay it was almost halloween?.it was a really good get together i met some good people there and had some good talks. alexis drove my car home that night and for some reason she drives alot better when shes drunk. it was a stupendous night. halloween night i was planning to go to marks house to go trick r treating with him and watch movies at his place with his good friends and alexis. that plan didnt work out so well on halloween. i went with alexis to her friends party and i wouldn't leave her on halloween so it was just a bad plan. it made me really sad that i gave peoples hopes up that night and dissapointed some. nothing was intentional i just know i wouldnt leave alexis halloween night or ditch her any day. the party was really lame other than d lo and his band playing. it was really exciting and they were really great. i woke up really early this morning and didnt have such a good sleep. my dreams are getting more vivid every night. whenever i look my dreams up alot of them mean all the same things. i need to do what makes me happy and what i know will do me good even if it does hurt or will make me sad for a little. i dont want someone who will judge me and want me to be this certain person to them to make me into someone else. someone else that would please them in the way their used to. i woke up to an interesting call this morning from my dad and decided to try to go to school to be a chef.

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winter!

weeee! mt.high is opened and alexis and are going to mammoth this winter wee o weee!